Who could have thought that this day would be the day that would change the rest of my life. The seemingly small decision I chose to take that day would turn me off the path that I once set out for myself and take me on a journey that would have me experiencing everything that the world had to offer. Once this decision had been made I began to question myself in every aspect of life, I no longer knew what I wanted and began travelling a road that would soon lead to my own self awareness and confusion.
In a way it happened very slowly with much attention being paid to whether I would accept such a violation of my morals and beliefs, however time was standing still for no one and before I knew it the decision had been made and I was experiencing something I had only ever dreamed of.
As I lay face down feeling the soft touch of his hands on my back whilst he caressed my skin. Several minutes went by before he began his decent. Slowly has slipped his fingers under my clothing, making sure that I wasn’t feeling uncomfortable, ensuring I would not deny him the desire he was searching for. I remember hesitating for a moment whilst I questioned whether this is what I wanted or not. I made the decision based on the deep burning desire to experience something that was beyond me, to take me life to the next stage and gain some direction. In an unpredictable move I turned over onto my back and began to stare him in the eyes. It was at this moment that I knew that the decision I had made to pursue my deepest desire was without doubt going to change my life, change my life in a good way.
As we lay beside one another both in ecstasy with so many questions running through my already overloaded system. It was more than I had ever imagined and was so grateful that the person I had finally chosen to explore myself was the man I would soon grow to love and admire. Time went by, with this love growing from what was once only an exploration of two young men’s sexuality. This love became so strong that nothing else seemed to mattered any longer. All I could ever think of was the deepest desire to be with the one person who made me so very happy. With my love and happiness invested in one person did seem a big risk but the love I had for him seemed to justify the reason for perusing what I wanted so badly.
We often spoke about the love we had for each other and the dreams we had for the relationship that had become the center of our young lives. There was no doubt in our minds that we had something special that would last forever.
……………………..xoxo…………………….
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